Saturday, July 19, 2008

NC Here I Come?

Well I came to Greensboro NC this weekend to spend time with my ex & good friend Mel. He's always complaining that I don't visit. The last time he came to NY, my boyfriend at the time wanted to spend the weekend with me. We broke up that weekend too & I didn't get to see Mel. Which sucked. I enjoy Mel a lot. He's the only guy I contemplated moving to NC for.

Anyway, I don't know why I came. He hardly has time to spend with me. And when he does come, he's tired. I've been here since Thurs late night. We've only slept together twice. I am used to having 3 to 4 rounds a day.

I'm a bit disappointed though. I want to spend more time with him. I know he has his kids to look after. Their momma is here also. She can look after them for one weekend. This is a reason why I don't want to mess with men who have children. But nowadays that's hard to find. Men can't seem to keep their seed from impregnating women. And women do not know anything about condomns or birth control. Anyway, I digress.

Granted Mel works late night. 10:30 pm to 7 am or so. He could just come straight to the hotel from work. Instead, he goes home, sleeps and then goes to work out. I don't get to see him until 1 to 2 pm. Then he's tired from working out.

I miss my Mel from NY. I don't think I will get him back. Is it time for me to give up on him? I could have had more fun in NY this weekend. I could've went to the beach.

Well I'm tired of bitching. But I do have a lot to think about. I don't know why I'm hung up on him. I will have to dig deep in my head as to why. That's another blog to come.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Dream - I'm The Invisible Pregnant Woman!!!

It has been 1.5 years the Light have been together. Light is Japanese but he looks like a mixture of my ex-boyfriend Anthony (Domincan) and the wrestler now actor Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson (Half Samoan & half Black). I missed my period and went to the doctor. I find out I am pregnant. I immediately tell him. Of course he didn't take it very well. He was angry to say the least. He walked out on me when I told him.

Couple days later he comes by. He says he doesn't want any children and he will not be a part of this. Well, that really pissed me off. What about the time we've been together? Anyway, I tell him fine. I take keys away from him and tell him I don't ever want to see him again. He wanted to still date though. He's funny. I looked at him and told him "HELL" no.

Trying to uplift my feelings, my brother takes me on a walk near an industrial port. There were metal bridges, huge oil tankers and tractor trailers. We walked passed a tractor trailer that looked as if it were going to tip over. My brother and I sped up walking so we wouldn't be in the way if it did tip over. Just as we thought we cleared enough roombetween the trailer and ourselves, the trailer tips over. The contents in the back of the trailer didn't miss us. We got splashed with some smelly liquid. Grossed out, my brother and I ran home to shower.

That night during dinner we start showing signs of unusualness. Everytime my brother passed me something it was always scalding. Everytime I try to pass him something he doen't see anything. We then end up watching a boxing match. My brother's favorite sport. He was standing up imitating one of bth boxers, he made a punch motion and a ball of fire came out. I duck out the way just in time. He stood frozen in shock and I scream "What the -uck!" My brother asks me what the hell just happened. I said "You shot fire from your hands."
He just mutters "oh shit" over and over again.

I begin to worry now. I was hit by the same liquid. I was worried I'd lose my baby. I didn't want to miscarry. Light would just love that. I started to panic. I just wanted to disappear. That's how I feel when I stressed, nervous or not myself. Next you know my brother starts screaming for me. I scream back saying why are you screaming. I'm in the room with you. He says that I am not. I say that's impossible because I have been standing by the coffee table. I move and hit my knee on the coffee table. I scream of course. I look up from rubbing my knee and my brother is staring at me like I was a ghost. He said I was invisible. I said yeah right. Then I must went invisible again because my brother start asking me where I am. I walk up to him and touched his shoulder. He nearly leapt throught he ceiling. I run to the bathroom to look in the mirror. I was aghast when I couldn't see my own reflection.

My brother and I settled down about our powers. We started to think what we could do with them. We needed to use them for something good. But my brother agreed with me that I should go to my doctor to see if my baby is ok.

I went to the doctor saying I was in an accident and I wanted to make sure the baby was okay. The doctor tells me that the baby was looking fine. He says everything looks fine. I should be able to carry to term without any complications. That was great to hear.

With positive news from the doctor I head home. I tell my brother that we should help the police capture violent criminals. He agrees. We work with the police until I was 7 months pregnant.

The day after my last day helping the police, my family decided to have a party. I do not know what the party is celebrating, but I'm having a great time. That is until my ex showed up. I don't know how he knew that imy family was gathering. He tells me that hed is now interested in being a father to my child. I tell him I'm not interested in him being the father. My child doesn't need a fickle father. He insists he won't and he'll be a steady regular in our child's life. He then asks if he can feel my tummy. I said okay.

When he touched my stomach the first time, my baby moved abruptly and drastically. Before he touched me, she was laying down with her head to my left side, her back towards the ground and he feet to my right side. When he touched she moved to where her back is now up facing by breasts. I told him to not touch my stomach anymore. She reacts too violent. He doesn't listen to me and he touches my stomach again. This time she moves dratically again and nearly knocks me down. Her head is now towards my spine and her bottom is poking out. This is very uncomfortable. I warn him again not to touch my stomachand once again he doesn't listen. This time she has her bottom towards my upper spine and her head nearly poking out my stomach. I felt as if the child was going to bust through my stomach.

I turn andwalk away from my ex while holding my stomach, making sured she's secure. I head towards my sister. She asks me what was the matter. I explain it to her. She said she had a trick that her OB/GYN gave her when she was pregnant with my niece Camille. She said Camille would react wildly too. She had me lay down on the bed. I don't know where the bed came from all of a sudden. I lay back and expose my stomach. My sister starts to tape around my stomach with tape that looks like masking tape but is stronger.

While she was taping my tummy, my niece asks me what am I going to name my baby. I tell her I'm not sure. She said that she has a temporary name for me. So I said let me hear it. She said I should name her "Earring". I said I can't name her a piece of jewelry. I tell her I may name her Raiku. She said that was a Japanese name. I said yeah it is. She's half Japanese so her first name will reflect it because she's not going to have her father's last name. Then my niece asks me if I know what special powers my baby is going to have since I have special powers. I said I really don't know. So she had me wondering that as I woke up to reality.