Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I Believe I May Be In Love

Before I married, I never know what loving someone wholeheartedly really meant. I believed I loved the men in my past relationships. However, nothing compared to the magnitude that I love my husband.

How can you love someone so hard? I can understand how people can become fatally attracted. I never thought I can be attached to someone. I'm ususually the one who has a wall up around my heart. I rarely let anyone in. Somehow my husband snuck his way in.

When I think about him, my heart fills with joy and love. I love him regardless of his faults. He is not perfect, but he is for me. He is very unassuming and treats me better than any boyfriend I had in my past. He does so much little things that melt my heart. I find myself wanting to take care if him.

I never understood when past boyfriends would say they missed me 2 hours after talking to them. I thought they were just crazy. It used to bother me a lot when they called or texted me saying "I miss you". I now understand. When you are so invested into the person, you want to be with them all the time. I don't think I'll ever grow tired of my hubby. I don't think I get enough time with him as it is.

I can't believe he loves me too. It's hard to wrap around my brain sometimes. He's not repulsed by me. He loves being close to me. He loves my farts and all. That is dedication, lol. He is also very attentive to me. He knows me so well it's scary. He knows when I'm not feeling well before I even verbalize it. He knows me thru and thru. There's no more mystery and he still loves me.

This post is mostly gushing about my feelings. I'm learning how to express them. Plus talking love is so easy now that I've been in a love bubble for nearly 3 years now. I'm more open to love. You have to thank my hubby for that. Without him I'd probably turn into an old crabby spinster woman.

Thanks for listening.


Chrisor (@ynotkissme) said...

I am so thrilled that I "met" you last night at the #BlogNow event. I liked you iimmediately but after reading some of your posts, I feel like I've met a kindred spirit. Your writing seems similar to mine in that I could find myself writing almost the exact same things. I feel so comfortable reading you, like we were old friends in another life. :-) I love my husband the same way and it makes me wonder how divorce happens. I can't imagine ever NOT loving my husband. How it could ever get turned off. I wish you many years of happiness together and I look forward to reading the rest of your blog posts! ;-)

Tiger's Lair said...

Thank you Chrisor. I don't understand the divorce rate either. I'm sure there are factors that contribute. But I think some people get married to be married and not because they love their spouse. Those, I believe fail rapidly. Well I wish you many years more of happiness too. :) xoxox